2:30 in the morning and not asleep.
Partly self inflicted this time. Watched Netflix with the kid.
Normally my brain is pretty good about not going into overdrive, but tonight, for some stupid reason … my brain is zooming.
I see people online with loads of pictures, lots of friends, and I can’t help but wonder what’s wrong with me.
Why am I so different. AM I so different? Maybe I am just not as good at faking it? And in part don’t want to fake it. After all, if I can’t get friends by being weird, crazy, introverted me, then really, do I even want friends that would like a fake me?
Most days I am very happy by myself (and my family). But some days I envy others. That companionship that you don’t see every day, people you can share your day, secrets, girl stuff … etc.
I had a friend (ya, just one. Lame.), but she moved. AND she is a huge extrovert. Always surrounded by people. Not sure if that is a need, or just how it works out? Whatever it was, I could only do one on one, and I don’t think that was enough. So I am forgotten.
90% of the time I could not care less, but sometimes, on nights like this, when my brain gets out of control, it bothers me. I start wondering what is wrong with me.
I am pretty sure it is because I never want to do anything.
Hi. My name is Susan, I like long walks on the beach alone (or with family), coffee, animals, books, geeky things really. Oh and I love watching TV(Doctor Who, Arrow, Elementary, CSI and to many more to mention), especially the Vancouver Canucks! Go Canucks go! (Next season)
Dislikes include, any where there is a crowd (more than 5 people), playing sports(most activity), liars, loud noises (ie: from crowds), and I have a general dislike of the human race.
Nope can’t tell why I have no friends. Though I do wonder how I managed to get married? Hahaha
Mm a big fault, I tend to listen and be the shoulder so often for everyone, that when I do talk, it is almost always about me and problems. Which is the biggest reason for this blog about my health. Just imagine my husband horror if I didn’t! At least having this blog helps lessen how much he has to hear.
Anyway, it is now after 3 in the morning. I should really get some sleep. Here I am trying to regulate my sleeping patterns, and what do I do? I go and watch Netflix. I am brain dead some days. 😝
FYI, any spelling mistakes? Ignore, or point them out. I am tired and “Swype” typing on my phone. Might be a few mistakes…