I may edit this for more content later, but for now I just want to put my thoughts down while I remember.
As usual I didn’t fall asleep until about 5am, and with my self appointed deadline to get a job looming over me, my sleep wasn’t solid. So when my son tickled my foot at 10:30 this morning, it took a bit to realize what was going on. At first I thought it was the cat trying to hog the bed again. When I realized it was my son, and what he was saying, I managed to haul my ass out of bed.
It was a phone call from my first choice in jobs. I listened to the message and phoned back right away. I have an interview tomorrow, and I am both excited and scared.
I have never really felt my age. Not when it comes to interacting with others. I feel about 6 when the parents would haul you around and force you to sit and listen to all the old people! I feel awkward and like they will know I don’t belong and I am just faking it somehow, that I am not really mentally as old or as competent as they are.
I have gotten better with the self confidence in the past years, but the pressure of having to have a job, and money, has regressed that somewhat. Thankfully I am pretty good at acting like I know what I am talking about.
And, I have been reminding myself that I do NOT get nervous about anything, not until it is over. Unfortunately, as I write this while on the toilet, my bowels didn’t get the message!
I am in serious need of a nap now, but I had to get this down. I am hoping they won’t notice I am wearing jeans. The only decent pair of semi-dress pants I own are too small now, and I can’t afford any “work type” pants. Well, not for the interview, I can borrow money for some if I get the job. Thankfully I do have a few nice shirts that I hope will make up for the pants. Crap! I only have sneakers. Man, this may not go well … Here’s hoping that my skill will be enough?
Wish me luck folks, I may need it.
HEY! Maybe if I get the job I will get discounts? Seeing as it is the grocery store we always shop at, that would be an added bonus!